I remember in my senior year of high school when I had to keep a dream journal for my AP psychology class. Honestly, my dreams are really really weird. Which is something I've always wondered, are most people's dreams really weird? Plus, my dreams always feel more like video games than movies. There's usually some sort of protagonist (not always me, but much of the time it is) and I'm playing in their role, but at the same time I realize that it's not real and it's just some crazy adventure. I've had dreams where it REALLY felt like a video game because there was leveling up, party characters, map "screens", etc. Some of these video game dreams can rival Japanese RPGs in weirdness, and you've ever played a JRPG then you know that's saying something.
The weirdest dreams, though, are the ones where my dreams for real life slip through. I usually obsess about things pretty heavily and they tend to dominate my thoughts in a sort of endless loop of worrying/wanting/excitement/plans/etc. So similarly to when Buffy pops up in a dream those real life dreams that I obsess about manifest themselves. Like this going to Japan thing. I can't tell you the number of dreams that are either set entirely in Japan or I go to Japan.
But, because they're real things that I want in the real world, those are the weirdest dreams. I just wish I could stop having these dreams in my sleep, and make them goals. Goals are things that can actually happen. Goals have substance. Goals are concrete. Dreams are kind of like old school Disney princesses who wait around hoping that someone will rescue them from whatever predicament they're in (ie Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella, even Belle somewhat, although she shows initiative by trying to rescue her father). Goals are more like the "girl power" princesses where they go out and do the things they know they should/want to (ie Mulan, Tiana).
Anyway, just some thoughts on dreams. I am curious though, how do your dreams usually play out?
Now I really do need to go read Gravity's Rainbow and study Japanese because I've spent the past few hours changing my blog layout and writing this post. Speaking of which, how does the layout look? Any comments/suggestions/things that are broken but I missed?
I feel like most of my dreams are lucid, in that I sort of feel like I'm in control of what I'm doing, but not of my environment. So I'm apparently making decisions but the things I encounter need to be reacted to.
ReplyDeleteThey don't always make a lot of sense but I dream about real life as well. I've had dreams about starcraft and needing to drone up more for the next day, as well as needing an expansion to produce more units. Other times I've imagined I was a tf2 character in a wide field, and I was continually spychecking myself.
Idk I'm weird.
My dreams vary a lot. Usually I'm myself, but sometimes I relate to the video game thing, because some dreams definitely feel more real than others. Not fantasy vs. realism, but more like, I feel more "myself" in some vs. others.
ReplyDeleteI used to have painfully boring dreams about things like going grocery shopping...with an occasionally interesting dream, like my house being attacked by a giant bug. Oftentimes I have this weird thing, where I feel like I can't open my eyes all the way, so I spend the whole dream trying to see clearly.
The past 8 months or so, though, I've had a lot more negative dreams. I went through a period of time when I dreamed about dying in various ways (everything from burning alive in my house to being attacked by dogs), and then I had really violent dreams involving other people (not me being violent toward them...just people getting hurt in awful or random ways). More recently, they've been about conflicts, and trying to resolve conflicts. The most interesting one lately was about a time warp in my grandparents' house, in which I was able to enter my family's past by going down the stairs. I'm sure a psychoanalyst would go to town with those.
Oh, and your layout looks nice :) I like your owl/text, and your color scheme :)